It Doesn't Matter

At the end of the day
It doesn't matter.

But I will wonder,
and I will wish that I could  
hear your thoughts
the way I hear mine.
Anything. 

The polite phrases 
you so kindly offered
did not impress
because
I will imagine 
in clear detail
why you did 
what you did.
What I did.

Not because I want to
take it back, 
do it differently,
but because I want to
relish it, 
savor it,
swallow it,
learn from it,
and never repeat it.
And maybe finally
let you go,
let it rest,
let me rest.

But like I was saying-
At the end of the day
It doesn't matter.