If you ever read this

If you ever read this,
I want you to know
I think what you're doing is great.

If you ever read this,
I want to say
I think we could've done better.

If you ever read this,
I want you to understand
it hurt me to care about you.

So if you ever read this,
know that I miss whatever we had.
And I compare every date to whatever we had.
And I pray to God someday I find something better than whatever we had.

And lastly,
if you ever read this,
I'd love to know your thoughts.
But I bet you'll never read this.