Note to self

Hey Kels,

I know you’ve been going through a tough time.
I know you thought your life was going to look a lot different at this point.
And I know this is really hard for you.

Do you know where you are?
Take a good look.
For the first time in your life,
you’re smack in the middle of tension.
The dip.
The shit.
The slump.
Welcome.

I know you hate it here.
I know you want to leave.
I know you feel left behind.

But look at what you’re doing.

You’re asking the tough questions.
Who’s it for?
What’s it for?

You’re quieting all that chatter.
You’re adjusting the frequency.
You’re creating space for possibility.

You’re emotionally letting go.
You’re learning to not know.
You’re taking it one step at a time.

And guess what?

You’re going to be fine.

You may not make a decision at the end of the altMBA.
You may not make a decision at the start of the new year.
That’s ok.
Here’s the catch.
You will not make a decision if you’re aiming for the right answer.
Because there is no right answer.

You can find more clarity.
You can summon more courage.
You can cultivate more curiosity.

And one day,
maybe where you least expect it,
you will have an answer.
How exciting.

Until then,
lean in to resistance,
embrace the tension,
hold on to the gifts of the past,
let go of what you don’t need anymore,
and savor that silence.

Listen.
And when you hear it,
turn that shit up.

Trust the process.

Love,
Kels

P.S. I’m your biggest fan.